Yep, got b1itched slap.
Well.... myself. :(
As wrote last month, I pretty much stated I didn't understand how friends can take advantage of their friends when it comes to gambling matches. If they are in a bad game, "friends" will still do whatever they can to take home the money.
I am sad to say I did that the other day. I did it to a friend playing poker. As I did it, I only thought about how I was better, not "what" I was doing. But as I reflected on my drive home from the casino, I realized I did exactly what I said I abhorred in that blog post from last month.
And I do not feel good about it.
This is a hard pill to swallow, and it's stuck in my throat. It's been 4 days since this happened and decided to open my soul with you all and share my guilt.
Long story short, a friend who is trying to get better at poker was in the same pot as I. I knew I would win because I had a boat, but instead of checking down to the river, I not only bet each card, I even raised my bet on the river.
The guy sitting next to us even commented, "You two are friends. Why didn't you just check?"
I immediately felt bad. Why didn't I just check? WTH was I doing? They were a friend. They ARE a friend. And yet even though I knew I had the best cards, I somehow just wanted that extra $35. I now understand what / how people feel when they are on the winning end of an uneven match.
I don't know what I was thinking, except I had the winning hand. And I took advantage of the fact they may not realize to fold. :(
You may think it's minor. Who cares about $35 or that she was a friend - I (or you) would do that to any of those strangers at the table. But when I mentioned it to my boyfriend, because the guilt was in my heart, he said I shouldn't have done it either, which made me feel even worse. Because? Because he was right.
Karma however got me - I went all in with a boat and lost to TWO other higher boats about 6 hands later to others on the table.