I have written many times how I have test anxiety, and that's one of the reasons why it took me so long to finally win that title tournament I yearned for for years!
But even after I got mentally strong and became more successful, I still never wanted to look at the bracket; I just didn't want to see who I was playing next.
I would psych myself out before even getting to the table with them, lol. If they were a top player, I could get timid and scared. If I thought they didn't play well, I could get too cocky. Either persona doesn't look pretty, right?
Recently I had a convo related to this with Katniss.
She was explaining a tournament experience and in that recap, she said she had asked a friend to go over to the bracket and tell her when she would be up next, as she didn't want to see the bracket.
I immediately felt giddy of course, because I could relate! I told her, " I don't like to see who I am playing next either. "
But, she shot me down.
She wasn't saying that at all!
She told me, "I don't mind who I'm playing next, I don't mind knowing that at all, but I don't want to see how much money I could potentially make if I won a few more matches."
So, this goes to show that we each have different things we don't want to see or know about because because it might affect our thoughts and emotions.