Failed Acting

I felt pretty proud writing my blog entry about Acting. Long story short, to recap:

I play in some tournaments I also run. Right after I finish a match, I must immediately go to the tournament chart, report my score, and then take over running the chart and get into Tournament Director mode - start answering questions with a smile, attend to players needs, announce matches, work on the payouts, watch the table area, ref shots, etc. The biggest challenge is to act and smile when the players come up to the chart, even though you may have lost a hill-hill heart breaker that could have meant either a Sunday winner's side match or you are now out of the tournament.

Tournament Directors have all the emotions everyone else has after a tough loss. We carry the feelings in our stomach and they fill our hearts and minds. However, we sometimes don't have time to compose ourselves and be alone for a while to regroup. We have to immediately get to work. And part of doing a good job is pretending like we just didn't lose. Act like we are okay.

I wrote the entry not only explaining this interesting tid bit of being a tournament director, but also because I felt I was successful.

Well, turns out I haven't been doing a god job. I don't have a natural smile anyway, so it's even more difficult for me to Act and Pretend. I feel bad I have upset a player or two by not pretending hard enough or being successful enough.