I realized today how much I appreciate the fact that I do NOT share my pool life with my coworkers.
While you may think it would be cool to get support and acceptance from coworkers, I look at it in a different light now.
While I do wish people understood my passion (pool) more and didn't smirk about it, I am okay with the fact I do NOT talk about my pool tournaments.
I actually feel less pressure after tournaments now, because I don't have to report to my coworkers my results.
I learned the hard way that people don't accept me playing pool, so what did I do about it? I stopped talking about. Even if someone happens to ask, "Do you still play?" I reply vaguely. Or if they find out I went out of town, they ask, "Oooh, for a tournament?" I just fib and say no. With too many frowns and non-support, I just don't tell anyone.
What is SUPER cool about this though is now I don't have to fade the Monday morning questions.
I used to "advertise" I was going out of town for a tournament. Then come Monday morning, I would get all the questions:
Coworker: "How did you do?"
Me: "I placed 13th."
Coworker: "13th? Is that good?"
Me: "Yes it is. It was a tough field."
Coworker: "Cool. Out of how many people?"
Me: "31 players."
Coworker: "Oh. Well, how much money did you get?"
Me: "$40"
Coworker: (silence, combined with a look of confusion)
At this point, it's obvious they don't know why I would spend money on a weekend full of hotel bills to play in a tourney for a measly $40. Not realizing when I said that it might have been the highest I had ever placed before.
Then the next Monday after a tourney, more questions; more smirks, more un-understanding. Then I started to feel pressure over the weekend, knowing I'd had to fade the questions and admit I didn't win another tourney.
I honestly used to dread having to give an update on Monday mornings. :(
Now, I get to come to work after a weekend-away tourney, or a big tournament in Vegas or Reno, and not have any second guesses or questions to answer to. :) I don't feel bad not placing well or spending my money on my passion. :)
so true
ReplyDeleteThis was such an interesting perspective on an obvious issue that a person who competes must deal with in the workplace.
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